Awakening to him (NSFW/BDSM)
A story of sexual and spiritual surrender ... inspired by a Nebraska night
I laid myself down slowly tonight divine feminine Flushed and sultry in the heat behind a veil Blushing and smooth A glow of softness teasing, tempting Only a sliver of me can be seen a dare behind the clouds behind my desire I invited him into my sky to show off his strength his lightning To perform for me a mating dance My lover the electrician Laughing and playful at first
Then the storm rose over the horizon under the shroud of night first crawling then up on one knee then rising towering over me covering all I see all I am What did you think it meant it asked gently when you said I was a god when you saw it in my eyes when you saw it in my soul the divine masculine What did that mean to you it asked softly I don’t think you truly understand your own words it said quietly You’re here because I want you here it said But I invited you I foolishly declared Then I felt it To my depths to my core The power the purest energy the sheer might It flooded the sky It swept away the veil with a slow breath a loving warning It found me naked willing wanting waiting Calm and ready I took the hand it offered It spread through me inside me around me over me Taking me enveloping me Heavy its weight The air electric I am the divine masculine it said as it asked me to my knees as it pushed me to my knees as it brought me to my knees as it grabbed the back of my head first gently then firmly and took its pleasure from my mouth I am the divine masculine it said as it held me there as it emptied itself its essence into my throat I am the divine masculine it said as it split me so delicately so softly with feather light touch of wind and spark touching here and here again lifting me taking me higher I am the divine masculine it said as it sliced me open cleanly, carefully expertly with an ancient blade of folded steel forged over eons delicate as a whisper caressing my molten core until I myself am folded into something unbreakable I am the divine masculine it said as it probed me insistently, knowingly with fingers of iron encased in velvet pressing stroking making lightning arc across my sky flashing blinding consuming the very air Until I could no longer draw breath The rain began I am the divine masculine it said as it pulled me closer pushed into me pounded me mercilessly twisted me held me opened me entered me again with inscrutable gaze and undeniable dominance
You’re here because I want you here it said But I invited you I pleaded weeping gasping longing opening Yes it said And I am here it said I am the divine masculine it said as it drew me into the vortex through the eyes of the storm Thunder it brought deep and low vibrating pulsing resonating shaking my walls my very foundation until I succumbed to its rhythm Wind it brought rocking me violently taking me again and again until finally, on my hands and knees sweat dripping hair hanging in matted tangles body sticky and raw and opened Tears pouring from eyes nose mouth Tears of obeisance Tears of reckoning Tears of gratitude Tears of respect and understanding I see now He is as powerful as I Not my subordinate any more than I am his But yet we are both servant and master giver and taker mine and yours the beginning and the end the everything the nothing I belong to him utterly and he to me We will take each other night into day storm into clearing until the rain washes us clean revealing our spirits spirals of stars liquid fire pure energy He holds me close to him to his chest to his heart in the embrace of a lover brother father son all that is divine You have done well he says He lifts my hair from my face He wipes my tears Cups my chin in his hand Now, you see he says He grants me permission to rest but first I offer a prayer to him On my knees before his grandeur With awe with worship A thank you for the privilege of seeing at last the honor of being of service I lie bare to the universe feeling safe feeling peaceful feeling vast and yet infinitesimal Surrendering You will wait for me he said I lie open awaiting his need Call for me again please I whisper into the dawn I haven’t even started he said I rise open
